I have been sick for 2 days. Actually, I just don't want to go out and do much things.
Today, I realised that I'm sick because of the project. I'm too worried about the project and think over it again and again. So, I still hope that these few days, I don't want to think about it first.
This also could be because of perfectionist characteristic of mine. I really like that this project offer best solution. I know that we can't implement anything during the time contrainst.
But, doing something without can't have any further development is not something what the sponsor wants. I know that he just wants us to experiment on something. But, if it's feasible then he could set up a business team to get the further development.
So, if we just do it with the constraint of the re-usable application then he can't have a further development if he thinks it's feasible to do so.
In the end, I don't want to think much about it in few days, since my really concern is my own body. I hope that I could have better condition in few days.
Really hope that I could be in better condition soon.
Friday, April 25, 2008
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Apr 23, 08 - Miss my Friends in Binus
Hm.. right now, I'm really missing my friends in Binus. I don't know why. But, I think I already encountered with bunch of best IT people in Binus. Most of my friends there are great people.
I really realised it right now when I made a project here in RMIT. I don't know. My team should be consist of the best graduates of RMIT in this program, but still I think that in Binus, things would be a lot of easier.
Again, I remember my team mate in my bachelor's thesis, Susanto Tedja; he is really such a great one. He could think out of the boundary. His thinking is always innovative.
The thing that I recall just know is that, here, people just want to play safe and do just as it is. They don't think much about the future development, doing it in the right direction. They just want to implement it and leave it.
In the other end, I want to do it perfectly so that the sponsor (IBM) could develop similar project based on our deliverables. So, it's just another round of dispute and fudge.
Hope that we could finalize the architecture by next week. We really need some inputs from the sponsor so that everything would be clear.
I'm thinking in a better implementation, but right now, I think I should compromize more with them. Overall, I'm not the key technical person. I'm just a database person.
Miss you all, friends.
Hope that I could have some of you in this team. And everything would be better.
See u.
I really realised it right now when I made a project here in RMIT. I don't know. My team should be consist of the best graduates of RMIT in this program, but still I think that in Binus, things would be a lot of easier.
Again, I remember my team mate in my bachelor's thesis, Susanto Tedja; he is really such a great one. He could think out of the boundary. His thinking is always innovative.
The thing that I recall just know is that, here, people just want to play safe and do just as it is. They don't think much about the future development, doing it in the right direction. They just want to implement it and leave it.
In the other end, I want to do it perfectly so that the sponsor (IBM) could develop similar project based on our deliverables. So, it's just another round of dispute and fudge.
Hope that we could finalize the architecture by next week. We really need some inputs from the sponsor so that everything would be clear.
I'm thinking in a better implementation, but right now, I think I should compromize more with them. Overall, I'm not the key technical person. I'm just a database person.
Miss you all, friends.
Hope that I could have some of you in this team. And everything would be better.
See u.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Apr 19, 08 - The Project
Right now, I'm quite stress about the project.
This is because I know more and more about the technology should be used in the project and how to develop the project. I believe that we should find the best technology as the plug-in in the project, since we can't develop overall in a short time.
Right now, I just wonder since no one wants to start to develop. We still search for the best possible technology to plug-in in the application. This is really stupid. We just have 2 more months in this project.
NOTE: I'm not the key person in technical area so I can't say much to start develop. Even though, I'm the one in database, but it's just a matter of storing the data.
I highly regard my team member when I was doing my bachelor's thesis now. He is really good in developing a software and do more rather than think.
No one in my team right now can be compared to him. He is really such a big guy.
I may be wrong in saying this, but I believe that Indonesian IT person in some aspects are far more better in developing project rather than here, in Australia.
In Indonesia, it may be that the documentation is not that good. But, here, people spend too much time in documenting the project, that the project run badly in implementation time. In the essence of software development, I believe that you should have a good software with a fair documentation.
But, my team spends too much time in documenting, even though I don't believe that the documentation is that good. And we even don't start to develop the project. It's so stressful.
Keep finger cross for me. Hope that I could have a good one here. Thank you.
This is because I know more and more about the technology should be used in the project and how to develop the project. I believe that we should find the best technology as the plug-in in the project, since we can't develop overall in a short time.
Right now, I just wonder since no one wants to start to develop. We still search for the best possible technology to plug-in in the application. This is really stupid. We just have 2 more months in this project.
NOTE: I'm not the key person in technical area so I can't say much to start develop. Even though, I'm the one in database, but it's just a matter of storing the data.
I highly regard my team member when I was doing my bachelor's thesis now. He is really good in developing a software and do more rather than think.
No one in my team right now can be compared to him. He is really such a big guy.
I may be wrong in saying this, but I believe that Indonesian IT person in some aspects are far more better in developing project rather than here, in Australia.
In Indonesia, it may be that the documentation is not that good. But, here, people spend too much time in documenting the project, that the project run badly in implementation time. In the essence of software development, I believe that you should have a good software with a fair documentation.
But, my team spends too much time in documenting, even though I don't believe that the documentation is that good. And we even don't start to develop the project. It's so stressful.
Keep finger cross for me. Hope that I could have a good one here. Thank you.
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Apr 12, 08 - "sista"
I'm quite glad now.
After few years without success to contact her, I get an update from her. I believe that the last time I contact her is around 3 years ago. Then, afterwards, I can't contact her anymore.
Anyway, I met her during the first year of my bachelor study. She is there, in the same class with me. And we started to talk and know each other well.
I regard her as my "little sister" since she is younger than me. We talked and cuddled along the way. But, she knows that I just regard her as sister, not more than that.
After the first year, we rarely meet, since she was busy with her club and I was busy with work. Also, we were in the different class after that first year. We rarely get a chance to meet.
We meet several times just after first year. In my last semester in Binus, I knew that she opened a restaurant with some of her friends in University area. That could be the last time I saw her; yeah, we meet in a supermarket opposite her restaurant.
This year, she is getting married. I don't know for sure when it is. But, she will. I hope that I could attend the party. But, let's see later on. hehe..
Congrat, my sista.
Hope that you'll be blessed with happy marriage.
Hope that you find the way to your happiness.
My blessing is with you.
After few years without success to contact her, I get an update from her. I believe that the last time I contact her is around 3 years ago. Then, afterwards, I can't contact her anymore.
Anyway, I met her during the first year of my bachelor study. She is there, in the same class with me. And we started to talk and know each other well.
I regard her as my "little sister" since she is younger than me. We talked and cuddled along the way. But, she knows that I just regard her as sister, not more than that.
After the first year, we rarely meet, since she was busy with her club and I was busy with work. Also, we were in the different class after that first year. We rarely get a chance to meet.
We meet several times just after first year. In my last semester in Binus, I knew that she opened a restaurant with some of her friends in University area. That could be the last time I saw her; yeah, we meet in a supermarket opposite her restaurant.
This year, she is getting married. I don't know for sure when it is. But, she will. I hope that I could attend the party. But, let's see later on. hehe..
Congrat, my sista.
Hope that you'll be blessed with happy marriage.
Hope that you find the way to your happiness.
My blessing is with you.
Friday, April 11, 2008
Apr 11, 08 - Project
Wow.. I just know that the last blog before this one is almost one week ago.
But, yeah, the project get the full attention of me that I almost spend no time on other thing. I work for about 3 days every week. And then I must spend about 40 hours each week to do my project.
I work on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. Then Wednesday and Friday are my project time hours. Supposed that I work 8 hours for that both day, then I still lack of 24 hours per week. I spend some hours in my working days that could come up to 12 hours or more.
But, still, it means I lack about 12 hours per week that I should do it on weekend. So, that's really crazy weeks ahead me.
Today, actually, I must do more research on Postgre SQL with spatial extension, means PostGIS. Yeah, I'll start it in a short time. Hope that I get something running on my machine.
Finger cross for me.
But, yeah, the project get the full attention of me that I almost spend no time on other thing. I work for about 3 days every week. And then I must spend about 40 hours each week to do my project.
I work on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. Then Wednesday and Friday are my project time hours. Supposed that I work 8 hours for that both day, then I still lack of 24 hours per week. I spend some hours in my working days that could come up to 12 hours or more.
But, still, it means I lack about 12 hours per week that I should do it on weekend. So, that's really crazy weeks ahead me.
Today, actually, I must do more research on Postgre SQL with spatial extension, means PostGIS. Yeah, I'll start it in a short time. Hope that I get something running on my machine.
Finger cross for me.
Saturday, April 5, 2008
Happiness - Kebahagiaan
This motivation quote is the best that i’ve ever found. You will be happy just if you think that you’re happy. And don’t bother to depend on others. They could leave you, or even, betray you. So, Be HAPPY everyday!
Note: You could read my own translation on the bottom of the page.
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Manusia Bahagia Bila….
Manusia bahagia bila ia bisa membuka mata. Untuk menyadari bahwa ia memiliki banyak hal yang berarti.
Manusia bisa bahagia bila ia mau membuka mata hati. Untuk menyadari, betapa ia dicintai.
Manusia bisa bahagia, bila ia mau membuka diri. Agar orang lain bisa mencintainya dengan tulus.
Manusia tidak bahagia karena tidak mau membuka hati, berusaha meraih yang tidak dapat diraih, memaksa untuk mendapatkan segala yang diinginkan, tidak mau menerima dan mensyukuri yang ada.
Manusia buta karena egois dan hanya memikirkan diri, tidak sadar bahwa ia begitu dicintai, tidak sadar bahwa saat ini, apa yang ada adalah baik, selalu berusaha meraih lebih, dan tidak mau sadar karena serakah.
Ada teman yang begitu mencintai, namun tidak diindahkan, karena memilih, menilai dan menghakimi sendiri. Memilih teman dan mencari-cari, padahal di depan mata ada teman yang sejati.
Telah memiliki segala yang terbaik, namun serakah, ingin dirinya yang paling diperhatikan, paling disayang, selalu menjadi pusat perhatian, selalu dinomorsatukan.
Padahal, semua manusia memiliki peranan, hebat dan nomor satu dalam satu hal, belum tentu dalam hal lain, dicintai oleh satu orang belum tentu oleh orang lain.
Kebahagiaan bersumber dari dalam diri kita sendiri. Jikalau berharap dari orang lain, maka bersiaplah untuk ditinggalkan, bersiaplah untuk dikhianati.
Kita akan bahagia bila kita bisa menerima diri apa adanya, mencintai dan menghargai diri sendiri, mau mencintai orang lain, dan mau menerima orang lain.
Berusaha dan bahagialah karena kita dicintai begitu banyak orang.
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I’m trying to put it into English using my own way. Hope that you could understand the passage.
Happiness is when …
Happiness is when we could open our eyes to realize that we have lot of precious things.
Happiness is when we want to open our heart to realize that we’ve been loved.
Happiness is when we have will to open ourselves, so that everyone could love us whole-hearted.
Sadness is because we close our heart, trying to reach the unreachable, forcing to get every single thing, don’t want to accept and grace what we have.
People are blind because of egoistic and self-seeking, don’t realize that he is loved, don’t realize that he already get the best, always trying to get more and don’t want to realize because of his own greed.
There are friends that love deeply, but are ignored, because we choose, assess, and judge. Choosing and seeking friends, even though there is a true friend in front of you.
Already possess the best thing, but too greedy that want to be attended, get full affection, being the center, and to be pampered.
Every person has their own role, be good and the best in a thing, but not others, being loved by one person, but not others.
Happiness comes from deep inside our heart. If you put your hope on others, then be prepared to be left, be prepared to be betrayed.
We will be happy if we accept, love and respect ourselves, and willing to accept others.
Fight and be Happy because we are loved by lots, lot of people.
Note: You could read my own translation on the bottom of the page.
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Manusia Bahagia Bila….
Manusia bahagia bila ia bisa membuka mata. Untuk menyadari bahwa ia memiliki banyak hal yang berarti.
Manusia bisa bahagia bila ia mau membuka mata hati. Untuk menyadari, betapa ia dicintai.
Manusia bisa bahagia, bila ia mau membuka diri. Agar orang lain bisa mencintainya dengan tulus.
Manusia tidak bahagia karena tidak mau membuka hati, berusaha meraih yang tidak dapat diraih, memaksa untuk mendapatkan segala yang diinginkan, tidak mau menerima dan mensyukuri yang ada.
Manusia buta karena egois dan hanya memikirkan diri, tidak sadar bahwa ia begitu dicintai, tidak sadar bahwa saat ini, apa yang ada adalah baik, selalu berusaha meraih lebih, dan tidak mau sadar karena serakah.
Ada teman yang begitu mencintai, namun tidak diindahkan, karena memilih, menilai dan menghakimi sendiri. Memilih teman dan mencari-cari, padahal di depan mata ada teman yang sejati.
Telah memiliki segala yang terbaik, namun serakah, ingin dirinya yang paling diperhatikan, paling disayang, selalu menjadi pusat perhatian, selalu dinomorsatukan.
Padahal, semua manusia memiliki peranan, hebat dan nomor satu dalam satu hal, belum tentu dalam hal lain, dicintai oleh satu orang belum tentu oleh orang lain.
Kebahagiaan bersumber dari dalam diri kita sendiri. Jikalau berharap dari orang lain, maka bersiaplah untuk ditinggalkan, bersiaplah untuk dikhianati.
Kita akan bahagia bila kita bisa menerima diri apa adanya, mencintai dan menghargai diri sendiri, mau mencintai orang lain, dan mau menerima orang lain.
Berusaha dan bahagialah karena kita dicintai begitu banyak orang.
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I’m trying to put it into English using my own way. Hope that you could understand the passage.
Happiness is when …
Happiness is when we could open our eyes to realize that we have lot of precious things.
Happiness is when we want to open our heart to realize that we’ve been loved.
Happiness is when we have will to open ourselves, so that everyone could love us whole-hearted.
Sadness is because we close our heart, trying to reach the unreachable, forcing to get every single thing, don’t want to accept and grace what we have.
People are blind because of egoistic and self-seeking, don’t realize that he is loved, don’t realize that he already get the best, always trying to get more and don’t want to realize because of his own greed.
There are friends that love deeply, but are ignored, because we choose, assess, and judge. Choosing and seeking friends, even though there is a true friend in front of you.
Already possess the best thing, but too greedy that want to be attended, get full affection, being the center, and to be pampered.
Every person has their own role, be good and the best in a thing, but not others, being loved by one person, but not others.
Happiness comes from deep inside our heart. If you put your hope on others, then be prepared to be left, be prepared to be betrayed.
We will be happy if we accept, love and respect ourselves, and willing to accept others.
Fight and be Happy because we are loved by lots, lot of people.
Apr 05, 08 - The Saturday
Huh.. This semester would really a busy semester for me.
Like I stated in my previous blog, I would have to spend 40 hours on project and 20 hours on working, at least. So, it would be really a busy semester for me.
Back there to my first 2 semesters, the time is not as tight as this one. Even though, it's stated that you must spend at least 10 hours in a course per week. But, it rarely happened, except in the assignment time.
The rest of the weeks are really a smooth and nothing-to-do time. I still have a lot of time to do whatever I want and some of the time, I was bored because nothing-to-do.
This semester is really a big semester for me. I think it should be a big start for me, to tune up my brain and body that my comfort zone is already moved.
I should fight and hope for the best in this semester.
The other thing is about my body. I already gain some weight here. Like I thought before, I'm sure that I would gain some weight here due to some reasons, especially due to the nice food here.
Like I stated in my previous blog, I would have to spend 40 hours on project and 20 hours on working, at least. So, it would be really a busy semester for me.
Back there to my first 2 semesters, the time is not as tight as this one. Even though, it's stated that you must spend at least 10 hours in a course per week. But, it rarely happened, except in the assignment time.
The rest of the weeks are really a smooth and nothing-to-do time. I still have a lot of time to do whatever I want and some of the time, I was bored because nothing-to-do.
This semester is really a big semester for me. I think it should be a big start for me, to tune up my brain and body that my comfort zone is already moved.
I should fight and hope for the best in this semester.
The other thing is about my body. I already gain some weight here. Like I thought before, I'm sure that I would gain some weight here due to some reasons, especially due to the nice food here.
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
Apr 02, 08 - Busy.. Busy.. and Busy
At last, I already decided to stay in my own group. I have some reasons there.
My friend, Sumeet, said that before I take any decision, please think about greater picture. Would you think that you would regret your decision in the future, lets say in two-three years time. And I got something on my mind that says I must suffer this time and have to fill this project for my future.
My other friend, Zia, a Bangladesh, always assure me that it's not a wise decision to move for such thing. And he believes that I could fit in more than the other part.
And I recall that I'm the one to assure him, Zia, in the second week that he should take this project. And make him believe that he would definitely get something big from this project.
But, doing this project for my semester is really a bad choice. I must have 40 hours in this project. In the other end, I still need to work for 3 days.
It's really a difficult situation for me. I left with a very small time for myself. Supposed that I could just have 24 hours in the working days (Mon-Fri). Then, it means I still have to spend 16 hours in the weekend.
So, this semester is really a nightmare semester for me. The worst semester that I've ever been through. But, I hope that I could go through this semester smoothly and nicely.
Jia You!!
My friend, Sumeet, said that before I take any decision, please think about greater picture. Would you think that you would regret your decision in the future, lets say in two-three years time. And I got something on my mind that says I must suffer this time and have to fill this project for my future.
My other friend, Zia, a Bangladesh, always assure me that it's not a wise decision to move for such thing. And he believes that I could fit in more than the other part.
And I recall that I'm the one to assure him, Zia, in the second week that he should take this project. And make him believe that he would definitely get something big from this project.
But, doing this project for my semester is really a bad choice. I must have 40 hours in this project. In the other end, I still need to work for 3 days.
It's really a difficult situation for me. I left with a very small time for myself. Supposed that I could just have 24 hours in the working days (Mon-Fri). Then, it means I still have to spend 16 hours in the weekend.
So, this semester is really a nightmare semester for me. The worst semester that I've ever been through. But, I hope that I could go through this semester smoothly and nicely.
Jia You!!
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